total destruction, my perfection.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

heyy.
so i din go school today.
haha.
but i din pon.
really.
i was really sick in the morning.
but it got better later.
hahaha.

i really hate school.

so i just lazed around
the whole day.
hmmm.
i got bored though.
and i decided to
go online and
search for satanic stuff.

gosh.
it's more morbid than
i expected.
seriously.
i researched the
black mass rituals..
the church of satan..
yadadadada.
it was really creepy.

the way those satanist celebrated mass and all.
like they used naked women as alters.
like what the hell!!!
and all their weird commandments and stuff.
like gosh.
their main theme is
"do what you will"
err.
okayy.
freaky.

and while i was halfway
browsing
through all their freakish
acts and behaviours,
the doorbell rang.

and that seriously
scared the shit outta me.
gave me a fright la.
in the end it was just seshaa, sk, cheryl and jill.
chey....
budden..
they wanted to see
what i was looking at,
so i had to show them the
website and stuff.
but actually.
coming from me...
i really dont advice
anyone to go there.
really.
its just quite creepy.
that someone group
of people out there are
actually
taking all these stuff seriously.

plus i think its quite wrong for
a catholic to do all the
stuff i just did.
and yes..
i'm catholic.
but curiousity got the better of me.
and now i regret it.
cause its quite late alr.
and i dun want info of all i read
floating around in my head.
i would like to
actually get some sleep you noe.

hmmm.
on to other stuff.
err.
theres kinda like none.

oh well.
okayy den
i'm sleepy anyway.
and a little bit creeped out.
shall stop here.
byeeee.

spoke at : 8:21 AM

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

weeeeee.....

i'm back.
gosh.
had english oral exam today.

we had Miss Jeo Teo
as our examiner.
like what the hell rite.
but it wasnt that bad la.
better then i expected.

although the picture was
kinda spastic.
seriously.

like it was a picture of a group of
people standing
beside the singapore river.
and they were all crowding around
and looking at something.
but the spastic part is that
the picture gets cut off there.
so no one knows what the people
looking at.
like that is so dumb.
like what the hell are we supposed to
talk about
if we cant see the
most crucial part of the picture.

but aniway.
i just babbled on and on..
until miss teo had to tell me

"you can stop already... dont have to go on and on and describe everyone."

thats so unfair la.
i used up almost all of my 10 mins
of preparation time to
practice the picture.
to make sure that
i had lots of things to say.
i almost forgot to
practice the passage.
sheesh.
but to her credit.
there were like alot of people in
the stupid picture
and i really wanted to go and describe all
of them
which would have been pretty
horrible if you were the
examiner la.
oh wells.

at least i had better luck with the
conversation topic.
haha.
i had feared that i would
get some
chapalan topic
like..

"What courses do u intend to take in University?"
err.
i haven exactly thought about it.
duh.
cos i dun ever intend to go there.

thankfully.
i had a topic rather closed to my heart.
hahaha.
about father's spoiling their daughters.
like i totally disagree with it!!!
yes!

well i could have done worse.

okayy.
lets go on to
the Jx report.

hmm.
lets see.
i heard that he asked seshaa
for me and jer today
whe i was having oral
and jer din come to school.
kekekeke
yea man jer!
high five!!

oh yes i saw him today also.
when i happen to walk pass him
haha.
happen
like whatever.
haha.
okayy.
so i was walking pass him.
really slowly.
den he looked at me
and said.
" Sara, u miss me?"
hahahahahahaha.
how was i supposed to react?
haha.
so i just turned around
and gave him this
are you kidding?
incredulous look.
like why would i?!

yea rite.
why wouldnt i exactly.
haha.

okayy la.
dats all.
i have to go get started on my art.
honestly.
i'm gonna get screwed
big time by miss ho.
if i turn up with nothing.

byeeee.

spoke at : 6:03 AM

Monday, April 24, 2006

this was supposed to posted on monday, but blogger.com screwed up, so i shall post it today (:

yoohoo.
i'm back.

okay.
so its the exams now.
had chinese paper today.
paper 1 was better then i expected.
at least i managed to understand one of the
bloody topics.
unlike last year's disaster.

but as usual.
there was a price to pay for
this unexpected good fortune.
chinese paper 2 was
utter rubbish.

the compre was pure shit.
i barely knew how to
read a single word.
like i din have a single
clue on what the stupid
passage was about.
honestly.
haha.
so..
its like a understatement
if i say i screwed the paper.
huge understatment.
but hu cares.
not me.
hopefully.
i wont fail too obscenely.

haha.
last saturday was a blast.
had quite alot of funn.
jx bought me chocolates!
ah bengs are so sexy!
maybe i shall consider turning
into an ah lian.
den again.
maybe i dun even have to.
i guess i had it in me all along.
consider changing my name
to April or Melody..
something along those lines.
hahahaha.
so germaine,
how about adding more points to
plycard 1. (sorry, inside joke)

i'm so tired
i cant even type properly.
ughh.

grace yow,
stuffed a microphone into my face
on saturday.
and disfigured my lip.
i'm traumatized.
now i look like
i have leperosy(is that the spelling?)
growing on my lip.
a big fat thanks to
grace yow.

i can so feel my sanity
slipping away.
honestly.
like i'm losing it.
but den again.
maybe i'm just paranoid.
i mean,
like
if i'm crazy.
den i won know that i am right?
so if i'm talking about being crazy.
means that i'm probably
conscious and sane.
right?
uh okayy..
i sound like a freak.
i better stop going on about my
sanity.

hu knows,
maybe my mum will be looking
after me
when she transfers to ward 12
the only ward in
national university hospital (nuh)
for mad people.

hi mum.
i'll be admitted in there soon.
take good care of me
when i start
having mad fits and talk to myself.
oh wait.
i already talk to myself.

okayy.
english paper tomorrow.
i bettter do some
studying.
guess i'll have to read my
romance book now.
haha.
studying for english
is so funn.
hahaha.

okayy.
tune in to
psychosara in the next episode.
it was funn
talking to the com.
byyeeeeeee.

spoke at : 7:48 AM

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

heyhey.
had this stupid bio mock
exam today.
its only too easy.
i finished the 1 and a half hour
paper in like 25 mins.
haha.
yepp.
easy alright.
i left most of the
questions blank.
hahahaha.

actually.
if you think about it.
its not even that funny.
considering i'll probably get
like the lowest in the class.
oh well.
the stuff i studied for
din come out at all.

and i totally forgot that last years
work will be included.
urghh.
oh wells.
at least i still have a sense of humour left.

i'm sitting here waiting for sk
to call.
so that we can begin
our jx stalking for the day.
but i bets she's fallen asleep.
duh.
expected.

from now on,
i think i'll stop going to risen christ
so often and make trips to
st Anthony's in woodlands.
just for the pure fun of it.
anyway.
not many people are even
bothering to turn up for the
usual saturday mass
that everyone used to
attend together.
so why should i bother.
humph.

eww.
its been raining for like so
long already.
as a result
i'm stuck at home.
eating and getting fatter.
this stinks.

and i realise that i have
absolutely nothing to blog about
but somehow i find that strange.
cos when something interesting happens
i'm always telling myself that
i have to go home and blog about it.
but its funny that
i always find that i have nothing to
blog about when i reach home.

lemme think.
hmm...

nope.
nothing comes to mind.
okayy.
so i shall stop here.
for now.
byee.

spoke at : 2:35 AM

Monday, April 17, 2006

oh my Gosh.
wad happened to my tag board.
i'm like a blog idiot.
can someone please fix it for me.
i cant stand looking at that
stupid
"Oops.. something.. something" thing
that has replaced my tag board.

help me.

spoke at : 8:50 AM

okayy.
so today was a rather fruitful day.
except that maybe i'll be
suspended cos i din go for art.
which is like the last period.
of the day.
my frens think i'm being
paranoid.
but... theres quite a high possiblity know..
anyway,
to calm myself down.
seshaa and i made up a song
about suspension.
its quite lame.
but its catchy.
if you ask me nicely,
maybe i'll sing it for you.

school was interesting today.
germaine, sk, seshaa, jer and pq
decided to be funny and
we played this kinda creepy game
where your hands get lifted
unintentionally when you close your eyes and
concentrate on nothing.
yupp.
it worked.
but i still have doubts about it.
i think it's just a
physical reaction or something.
we tried to make dawn
do it to us..
but she blatantly refuses.
coos she says its like a sin.
and catholics,
by right are not supposesd to
do it.
oh wells.
but it doesnt really count as
a sin if
you dun exactly believe in it right.
right???
i hope not.
cos i think it's rather interesting.
and besides.
i intend to continue doing it.
its intriuging la.
haha.

germaine also introduced some
other weird psychic game
its suppose to help us float or something.
but unfortunatly.
maine maine
did exactly get the facts right.
so we ended up looking like idiots
when no one floated.
hahaha.
please germaine.
go ask your sister.
hahaha.

i studied abit for my mock
bio exam tml.
juts a lil bit.
but i still dun think that i'll pass.
maybe i should go study now.
but i'm too sleepy,
and i plann to sleep
right after i blog.

okayy.
dats its.
i'm too sleepy.
and i keep hitting all
the wrong keys.
and i have to keep deleting all my errors.
this is too tiresome.
shall stop here.
nite.

spoke at : 8:32 AM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

hello.
today went to church for some
easter lunch.
so it sucked.
at least the food did.
urgh.
but wad do u expect for 25 bucks.
hahaha.
grace and i
were laughing at this
waitress's accent.
hahaha
"You want some green chill?"

but i regreted laughing at her after that.
cos she spilled my drink all over me.
luckily i was drinking water.
not those f&N orange that
everyone drinks at wedding dinners,
but never seem to touch anywhere else.
i suspect she did it on purpose.
heh.
well. maybe not.
at least i had some fun.

but the real fun started
when i met jer and sk.
hahaha.
we sneakily decided togther to
just get a drink at the coffee shop.
it wasnt an innocent decision mind you.
hahaha.
we all had a ulterior motive.
kekekeke.
to oogle lustily at JX.
hahaha.
the more i see him.
the hotter he gets.
boy. that ah beng is hwwaatt!

and so we spent
afew hours just sitting there
staring hungrily at his
long lean back
while he kiss and coddled his
stupid ah lian girlfren.
well.
i'll give it to her
that she's not bad looking.
so people.
dun call me biased.

haha.
finally,
after like
2 hours off throwing
secret glances at him.
our hardwork paid off.
i think he had a tiff wid her.
and she kept storming off
to the coffee shop toilet.
to cry or sulk or wadever la.
but honestly,
who the hell in
their right mind
wants to go near that stinking
toilet unless their bladder
is screaming to be released.
seriously.
its just sick.

but what was worst.
was that
she even left the table
and went all the way
to the other end of the
coffeeshop to sit with this
lecherous drunkkard guy
that happens to be frens wid jx
(although for wad wayward reason i cannot fanthom)
and she actually
dares to sit wid him and talk to him.
seriously.
u cannot imagine how scary that
old lecher is.
he's like drinking from a bottle
like practically all the time.
and he keeps talking to me when i
walk pass him.
gives me the chills.

that girl must be seriously disturbed if
she actually.
volunteerily wants to sit beside him.

know what.
i cant stop talking about him.
ugh.
better stop man.
i'm starting to sound like
i have an obsessive compulsive disorder.
probably though.
and yes germaine.
i know u think that i'm better off with derek.
please get that random thought outta your head.
u're so weird.
but i love you!

okayy.
dats all for now.
theres school tml.
and i want to
be able to wake up.

spoke at : 8:30 AM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

lo.
haha.
after many days of slogging
for our history presentation.
its finally over.
know what.
we did like so much more den
what was needed.
geez.
what a waste of time.
but at least i learnt quite abit.
in this sick way.
i kinda enjoy getting projects.
its just funner and easier to do.

today is my free day.
i had nothing after school.
so came home early.
right after i finish blogging,
i'm gonna sleep.
yes!
cant wait.

anyway.
afetr church on saturday,
went out wid the league people for
dinner.
it was funn.
kinda.
cos its been pretty long
since a bunch of us
have gone out togets.
but nothing much happened after dinnner.
walked around.
den we spilt up.
haha.

i went to meet jer and sk.
and guess who we saw when we
were slacking outside mos.
haha.
jx!
haha.
he was with his girlfren.
haha.
i think the three of us have
this destiny thing.
haha.
"in the chaos of this universe,
our paths will cross,
as many times has
the sun rises and sets."
-adapted from the sutra of sara
hahahahaha.

whatever la.
but its pretty funny to keep running
into him.
and i bet u his girl fren hates us or
something.
haha.
cos she can see the lusts in our
eyes when we stare at jx.
hahaha
lust.
just kidding.

we just thing that
bad boys like jx
even if they are of the ah beng
criteria
are irresistable.
nyahahaha.

okayy.
lemme see.
thats about all.
i wanna sleep.
later.

spoke at : 12:42 AM

spoke at : 12:42 AM

Friday, April 07, 2006

nyahaha.
today's friday again.
finally.
gonna have funn tonite.
wanted to go fer the band concert
but grace and i changed
our minds in the end.
oh wells.
i dun think i'll be missing much aniways.
just people blowing into trumpets and stuff.

i was planning to leave school
early today.
was damn sleepy.
wanted to go home to sleep.
but i decided against it.
cos it would be too much trouble.
write letter and shit.
den i'll piss my mum off even more.
yayaya.

had league meeting yesterday
waahh.
ended so late la.
was practically falling asleep
during the meeting.
i wish meetings werent so draggy all the time.
really noes.
we just go on and on about one
thing for like an hour.
but to be fair.
we also keep playing.
kervin la.
keep distracting us.
sheesh.
haha.

after school.
went to eat lunch with.
germ, sk,hum,jer and tenisha.
haha.
i feel like a pig noe.
keep eating.

den after that.
we went back to school
to do our stupid history project.
luckily,
we managed to get back
all the work that
we thought was lost to us forever.
hahaha.

fooled around in the library.
ate sweets and
stopped chewing when the
stupid librarian auntie came over.
she sucks la
cannot do this
cannot do that.
what.
will she like
die if we dont follow the
rules exactly?
crazy.
she definately looks crazy.

jer just called.
she's on her way here.
ha!
finally.
a living breathing human being.
i have already run outta things to blog.

why?
becos as i've said alr.
my life is boring.
when it gets interesting
i'll let ya know.

kayy.
i'll be back
byeeeee.

spoke at : 6:48 AM

Monday, April 03, 2006

hi.
this is just gonna be a short one.
my life is too boring for it to be long
had physical fitness test today.
din fail anything.
thank god.
but i have detiorated alot since last year.
gosh
it was shocking.
anyway.

its onli monday and
already i feel sleepy.
its a sign that i need to sleep.
have a busy day tml.

theres a party at mos
in may
will i be allowed to go?
that remains to be seen.
probably not.

been having fun these few days.
but naughty kinda funn.
none of which is goood for me.
but i like.

me and sk keep running into
JX
this ah beng we used to have a crush
on like 5 years ago.
we nv forgot him.
hahahah.
and now he's back
outta boys home at last.
like i totally dun see the
improvement in atttitude
and behavior.
but i shouldnt be prejuidiced.
i must
unlock the second prison.
support the yellow ribbion project.
anyway.
me and sk have been busy
loitering around our estate
hoping to catch a glimpse
of him
yes i know
it's kinda stalkerish.
i'm sorry sk
for dragging u in.
but the truth is the truth.
but the worst part is that he's not
even that cute.
above average for an ah beng.
wait.
why am i even saying that.
ah bengs are damn cute
thay have so much pai kia
irresistable.
hahaha.
serious.
i have a soft spot for
ah bengs.
with their long bleached hair
and ganster attitude.
gosh.
hwwaat!!!

but this goes to show how
pathetically
desperate i'm becoming.
oh wells.
i'm just looking!!!
no harm there.
heh.
okok.
wont bore u with all
the exact details.
although i could go on like forever.
hahahaha.
rite sk?

okok.
byee.

spoke at : 7:32 AM