total destruction, my perfection.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

whats happening.
this is quite shit sometimes.
i guess you can never have it all.
honestly,
at some points i really thought i did.
its like
losing a pound and finding a penny.
i'd rather have the pound back.

work was alright again.
at certain times
theres like absolutely nothing to
do other den pretend to keep
busy by arranging the clothes hanging on the rack.
whilst at other times
there are so many customers
that you wanna just start throwing
jeans at them and
tell them to
"find your own bloody size, you fatass!!!"

yupp.
but of course not.
rule no. one.
always squeeze
out a smile.
no matter how constipated you feel.
:)
:D

the thing i love most about work
is serving one customer at a time.
and watching with satisfaction
as she buys the pair of jeans
after seeking your opinion.
its like a god like feeling.
hahaha.
"harhar.. it all depends on how i think it looks on you!!!"
"nanny nanny poo poo"

kayy whatever.

but the thing i detest most
is stock taking.
like bhdjfhsdfjfdvhsdfknvsdklvsdnkdsjnsdv.
its seriosuly sucks ah.
urghhhhhhhhh.
u have to count every single item.
and in a shop that houses like
what 1500 items?
how can you possibly account for
every single thing?
and it isnt as though my
maths as been the power.
i keep getting my numbers mixed up.
i'm such a incompetent fool sometimes.
haha.
just sometimes.

oh wells.
thats all.
come visit me if u can.
but sometimes i maybe too busy ya.
get a pair of jeans.
the new batch is really
pretty.
with sequieens and embroidery.
:)

byeeeeeee.

Can we stay the same
if I move half the world away?
we´ll float off through the night,
and hope to meet somewhere in between.

spoke at : 8:23 PM

Monday, November 27, 2006

work was alright.
i was damn tired at the end of the day.
and i managed to mess up afew times.
such as
punching my stupid card wrongly,
answering the phone wrongly
(getting corrected by the supervisor)
and not ever remembering the
thousands of different jeans models
and designs.

well.
to look at it on the brightside,
it was only my first day.
and all my colleagues are really nice.
other than the
whole communication issue.
damn.
i should have tried harder at chinese.
haha.
well, mostly
i just listen, pretend to understand,
and just nod and nod.
hahaha.

i forgot to bring any water.
and i almost died of dehydration.
luckily.
i'm a semi camel.
and i have mastered the art
of going for ages without water.
normal people would have died
in my situation.

regardless.
i hope i remember to bring water today.
work starts soon.
i'd better get ready.
byeeeeeeeeeee.

my empty promises
led to our demise,
and i could never tell you
how i really feel,
and for that
i eternally apologize.

spoke at : 7:35 PM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

okayy.
grad was good.
but the real fun came after it.
haha.

but first i shall describe it all from the beginning.
no doubt u will here it from everyone elses blogs,
but of course
with my superior english skills.
no one will have a better description of grad night
then yours truly.
haha
shut up sara.
okok.

anyways.
i must say.
everyone looked damned good.
lets give a brief discription
of everyone, just
to let you have a visual image in
your minds.
hmmm.

sk wore something rather asian.
dark midnight blue
with red embroidery.
it was really nice.
her red pumps were hot.
stilletos.
and her rose earings were the
finishing touches.
so many compliments for her dress.
wow.

germaine went for classic black.
compliments of warehouse.
the cutting was really flattering on her
hourglass figure.
the dress fell to her knees,
simple, classy and elegant.
not to mention a stark contrast
against her diva personality.

connie wore a short,
sassy number.
the base of her dress was black, but you cant
really tell cause there
was like
gold prints and glitter.
someone else wore the same dress.
but too bad for her.
cause connie totally out did her.
go connie go!

grace yow went for black too.
it was short and shimmering.
and it showed off her assets
fully.
she looked adorable.
haha.
bouncing around.
ahaha.
and she officially
the word queen.
or something.
cause she won some contest
against the smartest girl in our school.
pure luck with a touch of
quick thinking.
haha.

angie came in a
stylized jap ensemble.
red and black
with a obi tied behind.
gorgeous.
she totally looked cosplay.
angies style.
haha.
and she designed the gown herself.
maybe i'll borrow it sometime.
yea angie?

ali was all hot.
all cute and perky.
short, bareback, crimson red.
her red lipstick just did it for her.
oh oh.
and her black velvet
strappy heels were damn good.
just perfect.
if i were your shoe size ali,
you'll never see them again.
:)

and of course,
vann out did us all.
came sauntering in
looking like what angie said,
a japanese princess.
she was wearing her own design too.
it was like a short fitting kimono.
the embroidery was to die for.
gold and green bamboo shoots
against a silk black background.
drools.
her make up was good too.
crystals on her eye lashes.
you can imagine.

yupp.
that was basically it.
oh theres me.

i went for black too.
it was rather on the short side.
black shiny velvet with a silk bow.
the skirt flares out.
to give me an impression of a figure.
i wore diamonds.
real of course.
haha.
so i guess i looked
demure and elegant.

it was fun.
we were totally cam whoring.
haha.
jer was damn bad.
cause you all know
that i'm known as
nerd by day,
slut by night.
not literally la.
but u get what i mean.
so our conversation went something like that.

"sara, cam whoring i see..."
"what, cannot cam whore meh? you do it all the time too!"
"ya, i cam whore, but i dont whore."
hahahhaha.
then i was like what the hell?
hahah.
jer you are damn good.
haha.

anyways.
the food was okayy.
not fantastic.
but edible.
it was rather boring though,
if you ask me.
the after event was more fun.

we booked a hotel room.
went to play dota.
haha.
i'm so addicted.
alph, jude, bryan and jon came
to play with us.
wyna was somwhere around too.
i played rather badly.
but only cause i was
wearing contacts in one
eye only.
and i was like half blind.
hahaha.
not my fault.
grace keep killing me.
haii.

then we all went back
to the room to drink.
hahah.
alph was gone.
rolling all over the floor.
being rather of an annoyance.
haha.
poor bryan had to look after him.
sk was pretty high too.
haha.
laughing so loudly.

we all watched hostel.
which was a rather
crude mixture of porn,
and sadistic torture.
haha.
i was dozing off in a chair.
it was freezing ah.
poor bryan and his zero degrees hands.
haha
hahahhaha.

tim chow and maine maine
were happy
in their own world or
kama sutra positions.
hahahhaha.
it was all funn.

the night ended all too soon.
shao ye looked like L from death note.
and she wore eyeliner.
which i kept
on commenting about.
cos she just look so hot.
she thought i din like it.
so she gave me this drool stare.
but you got it wrong shao ye.
it was just the opposite.

she left halfway though.
with tim chow.
weirdo.

and so we all woke up late.
vann, connie ali and sk.
were all the major piggs.
sleeping right through
breakfast.

sk woke up with a hangover though.
major felt like puking.
poor thing.
haha. drink summore la.

din get to dota again though.
cos i hd to be home by 3.
never mind maine maine.
another day ok?

yupp.
so that was our grad night.
it was nice.
really.
i spent it with all
the people that i really
wanted to be around with.
nothing could be better than that.
other than one missing person.
it was perfect.

i just wished that the night wouldlast forever
and that morning would never come.

okayy. bye.
that was long.

spoke at : 6:31 AM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

okayy.
shop till i drop.
literally.
its the same story everyday.

this is the life man.
no aim
no goals
just pure bumming.
hmmm.
i could get used to it.
i was born for this kind of life.
haha.

anyways.
tried on my dress at home again yesterday night.
when everyone was sleeping duh.
haha.
was prancing around the house in heels.
doing curtsies and twirls.
then i tripped over my feet and fell.
it was ugly.
haha.

i was trying to do a waltz.
cause i happened to be watching
the mask of zorro on hbo.
and they were all gliding across the ballroom.
and i was so inspired.
apparently,
it appears i cant really float gracefully
across ballrooms.
damn.

anyways.
my mum got up to drink water,
and caught me
in the midst of trying to do a waltz,
solo.
and then she just gave me a weird look.
and then went
"so late already still dance dance."

hahaha.
so i just ignored her and pretended
to be arranging my
dress to see if it fit.
hahaha.
i'm so full of crap.

ahhhhhhhhhhh.
so here i am.
waiting for sk to wake up.
so that we can go last min shopping.
lots to buy you know.
oh..
which reminds me.
i have to call maine maine.
shopping with her today too.
maine maine...
here i come.

oh.
yes.
meeting maine maine at 2 plus.
now all thats left is sk.
miss piggy wiggly.
haha.
ali is waiting also.
piggy wiggly.
pls wake up.
haha.
okok
thats all.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I love you
and that's what
you are getting yourself into.

spoke at : 7:41 PM

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

well.
here i am.
slouching in my chair.
vegging out in front of the com.

what else could i be doing?
hmmm.
lemme see.
welllll....
i could be at ministry of sound.
partying.

but as you know.
i cant.
thus.
here i am.

just a recap,
i'm always in this rotten mood
on party days.
and that would be because
its always the same situation.
i'm getting so sick of it.

okayy.
enough self pity
its pathetic.
its probably going to
be crowded and like shit
anyways.
(wow, what a sour grape)

anyways.
went shopping today.
bought myself a pair of shoes.
its not bad.
shopping is therapeutic (i know the spelling is wrong)
you knw.
went dress hunting
with connie, sk, and maine maine.
it was so much funn.
tried on lots of clothes.
maine maine bought her dress.
and connie has kinda confirmed hers.
and sk is buying hers tomorrow.
wheeeeeeeeeee.
we all have pretty dresses.
well.
most of us anyways.
i'm having doubts about mine.
hahhahah.
No sara.
too late for regrets.
too late.
dont
go
there.

okayy.
oh.
in case you dont alr know.
i'm working at levis.
hehe.
starting friday,
i'll be working at
levis scotts - girls counter.
isetan.
actually,
i have no idea where
it is.
any clues people?
your help would be greatly
appreciated.

umm.
so if you wanna buy a pair of
levis?
come look for me?
haha.

yupp.
thats all.

Not now or forever
will I ever change you
I know that to go on,
I'll break you, my habit!

spoke at : 3:44 AM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

arghh.
if only you were dead.
den i could do as i please.
i'm going to hell for saying such things.
but i just somehow cant see
life any worse without
you around.
i'd probably miss you.
a little.
for awhile.
but i'm willing to that
small price.
whats afew tears
in exchange for
years of freedom.

i'm evil.
told you about the demon.
i'm one.
see.
see.
now that everyone knows how
i really feel.
they're going to
think i'm a monster.
an evil monster.
well guess what.
you're friends with an evil monster.

regrets?
i'll understand.

break all the mirrors.
so i wont see who i am.
give me a mask.
to hide behind.

spoke at : 12:38 AM

Friday, November 17, 2006

okayy.
this is long overdue.
but the o level mugging days
have been monotonous.
i didnt think anyone
would want to bother
reading about what i've been
studying.
not that i've been doing
much though.
haha.
some people talk about
all the fun they are going
to have when the exams are over.
but i dont suppose it will
make much of a
difference to me.
since i've already been living
like the exams are over.
come to think of it...
i dont think i actually ever started
acting like i was about
to take one of the
most important exams
of my life.
but whatever.
i'll probably have to take it
again next year.
haha.
i'm so lazy i cant stand it.
oh wells.

anyway.
everyone has been
struggling with their
own inner demons.
somehow,
it seems like i dont have
any demons to fight.
perhaps i have learnt
to co-exist
with them.
or maybe i am
already a living breathing demon.
so theres nothing to fight.

i'm so indifferent now.
its like nothing matters.

except for my precious
handful of people.
whom i grasp on
so tightly to.
afraid to let go.

someone said
"better to have known love and lost, than to have never loved at all."
or something like that.
dont expect me to quote shakespear
like some freak.
i cant.

anyways.
i disagree with that sentence.
because now that i have known
friendship,
companionship,
mutual understanding,
silent acknowledgments,
and secret smiles.
i dont think i could
live without these treasures anymore.

not without all whom i hold dear.

spoke at : 5:35 AM

spoke at : 5:35 AM

Saturday, November 04, 2006

grosss.
my sister just burped into my face.
can you imagine that?!!!
one of my most hated things is that
people burping.
especially into my face.
and my little bratty sister
just came up
to me while i
was clicking away
on the com,
and burped into my face!!!
and for a moment i
just couldnt react.

but just for a moment.
of course,
after i got over
the initial shock,
i screamed at her
and told her she was disgusting.

but you know what?
all she did was laugh,
and ran back into the living room
giggling.

funny.

i wonder who taught her
to be so rude.
perhaps she learnt it from me.
but i dont ever recall burping into
people's faces.

annoying.

anyway.
i just blew my
whole day away.
apparently,
it seems that i really cant study at home.
i'm just too
ill diciplined.
(is that how you spell it?)

but i'm planning to
burn the midnight oil tonight.
yepp.
we'll see if i can last half the night.

okayy.
that is all.

i have no business
updating my blog,
while evryone else
is like busy studying.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

spoke at : 5:39 AM

Friday, November 03, 2006

humph.
maths paper coming up.
whatever.
i'm dead.
i'll settle for a D7.
but i doubt i'll get even that.
sheesh.
i deserve my fate.

lets see.
whats new.
nothing.
couples are in love.
lovebirds are everywhere.
boring.
people in love should just die.
hahhahah.
kidding.
i'm in love too.
just with the wrong sort of person.
i should jut die.

my thoughts are kinda random today.
blame it in
Welcome to The Black Parade.
that song is just driving me insane.
its nice.
but only the front bit.
the rest of it is
rather unhearable.
i checked the lyrics.
dont make sense.
oh wells.
hahahaha.

potong was alright today.
merger and separation is
such a tedious thing to study.
boring.

i need to go on a diet.
oh wait.
who am i kiding.
sara?
on a diet?
rightttttttt.
hahahha
byeeeeeeeeeeee

spoke at : 7:37 AM