Sunday, July 20, 2008
i see you everyday, you're a habit i dont ever want to kick.
Chua and his tic tacs, sharp comebacks and cool smiles. Woo!
even though they stole my phone and camwhore with it (this is just one of the MANY pictures.)
i love them till no end.
kim, remembering what you did with the price tags on the sunglasses still makes me laugh.
And nat, who i can always count on to be there no matter what.
See, even non-humans like my sister loves her.
okayy.
so these are just afew random pictures.
it seems today is a lucky phone day.
like for once, i can actually see that my phone card file
pops up right after i connect the usb to my com.
it normally doesnt, and i dont know how to rectify it.
just been hanging out with the same people.
cheryl has just been a permament "cannot-do-without" fixture in my life right now.
and of course there's sha.
:)
alot has been going on right now.
trust me.
i do mean ALOT.
and it seems that none of it is in my hands anymore.
not that it ever has been if you choose to look at it in a pessimistic light.
i wonder if it was foolish of me to trust you.
i pray i'm wrong.
but whatever is it, i've had enough.
i wash my hands off everything.
and i'm just going to focus on myself now.
on the things and on the people who are important to me.
and who will never let me down.
i'm not going to tell you how badly you disappointed me.
It hurts to think you even said that.
spoke at : 6:34 AM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
i know, i dont update anymore.
sometimes i wonder if i should just stop blogging completely.
there are so many things i wanna say, let out, but i dont think i can find the words that will fully express what i mean.
so whats the point.
and then there are some things that i cant say out loud,
but yet weigh so heavily, so much so that i find myself sighing so often now.
my days have been relatively good.
you know? filled with friends and just alot of fun.
but yet i know that some of us are just falling apart,
and i'm not sure how long i can hold us together.
i just wish some of us would try harder.
because i'm getting tired.
Why cant some people learn to be more sensitive, and others try to be less so.
and why cant we just give in sometimes, and let it go.
and why cant you see that your strong headedness is really hurting people around you?
do you really need me to say it out loud?
What happened to give and take.
Thats just the way we're built i guess.
Different, individuals.
i just hope that is this just a temporary rough patch that we're going through,
and that it will pass soon enough.
but if its a rough patch, its a really long one.
when its over, i pray all of us will be left intact.
And as for you.
cant you see how much you're tearing us up?
When will you stop?
No more games please.
this is such a wishful post.
i just keep wishing things could be different, better.
i know i'm weak, behind my tough facade.
because i let other make decisions for me sometimes.
but the opinions of people i care about mean alot to me.
and it just hurts when i feel that no one is behind me in this decision.
fully anyway.
Even if you disagree, at least dont let me hear about it.
Because of all this, i cant go anywhere, i'm afraid to make any decision.
how weak is that.
This is so wrong,
but it sure feels right.
sometimes i wonder if i should just stop blogging completely.
there are so many things i wanna say, let out, but i dont think i can find the words that will fully express what i mean.
so whats the point.
and then there are some things that i cant say out loud,
but yet weigh so heavily, so much so that i find myself sighing so often now.
my days have been relatively good.
you know? filled with friends and just alot of fun.
but yet i know that some of us are just falling apart,
and i'm not sure how long i can hold us together.
i just wish some of us would try harder.
because i'm getting tired.
Why cant some people learn to be more sensitive, and others try to be less so.
and why cant we just give in sometimes, and let it go.
and why cant you see that your strong headedness is really hurting people around you?
do you really need me to say it out loud?
What happened to give and take.
Thats just the way we're built i guess.
Different, individuals.
i just hope that is this just a temporary rough patch that we're going through,
and that it will pass soon enough.
but if its a rough patch, its a really long one.
when its over, i pray all of us will be left intact.
And as for you.
cant you see how much you're tearing us up?
When will you stop?
No more games please.
this is such a wishful post.
i just keep wishing things could be different, better.
i know i'm weak, behind my tough facade.
because i let other make decisions for me sometimes.
but the opinions of people i care about mean alot to me.
and it just hurts when i feel that no one is behind me in this decision.
fully anyway.
Even if you disagree, at least dont let me hear about it.
Because of all this, i cant go anywhere, i'm afraid to make any decision.
how weak is that.
This is so wrong,
but it sure feels right.
spoke at : 10:01 PM