okayy.
this is long overdue.
but the o level mugging days
have been monotonous.
i didnt think anyone
would want to bother
reading about what i've been
studying.
not that i've been doing
much though.
haha.
some people talk about
all the fun they are going
to have when the exams are over.
but i dont suppose it will
make much of a
difference to me.
since i've already been living
like the exams are over.
come to think of it...
i dont think i actually ever started
acting like i was about
to take one of the
most important exams
of my life.
but whatever.
i'll probably have to take it
again next year.
haha.
i'm so lazy i cant stand it.
oh wells.
anyway.
everyone has been
struggling with their
own inner demons.
somehow,
it seems like i dont have
any demons to fight.
perhaps i have learnt
to co-exist
with them.
or maybe i am
already a living breathing demon.
so theres nothing to fight.
i'm so indifferent now.
its like nothing matters.
except for my precious
handful of people.
whom i grasp on
so tightly to.
afraid to let go.
someone said
"better to have known love and lost, than to have never loved at all."
or something like that.
dont expect me to quote shakespear
like some freak.
i cant.
anyways.
i disagree with that sentence.
because now that i have known
friendship,
companionship,
mutual understanding,
silent acknowledgments,
and secret smiles.
i dont think i could
live without these treasures anymore.
not without all whom i hold dear.