total destruction, my perfection.

Friday, December 22, 2006

My Christmas Wishlist

1) _____ (thats to keep you guys guessing)

2) i want everything to be exactly the same.

3) no surprises. (i've decided that i dont like surprises)

4) i want that letter to never arrive in my mailbox.

5) i want to turn back time. (yeah right, who the hell doesnt. no no, but just for afew days. 2
days would be fine.)

yupp.
thats all i can think of for now.
dont worry.
dont think that just cause you
dont see any material items on my list
it means that i'm suddenly becoming all
holy and un materialistic.
i'm still the most materialistic person on earth.
that was just my "unmaterialistic list"
that list could go on
forever.
haha.

whatever sara,
whatever.

oh.
i read a phrase on a shirt.
and it made me laugh.
although you've all probably seen it
and i'm just slow.

"friends are forever,
boys are whatever."

hahahhahahhha.
dont you think its funny.
well.
i like it.
and i think its true.

and i'm going to stick to it as
my christmas phrase for the season.
whatever thats supposed to mean.

as you can tell.
i'm kinda in a whatever mood.

ughh.

the most awful thing
just happened to me yesterday.
wait.
its past 12.
means...
2 days ago.

sighh.
i supposed it was just
waiting to happen.
and i deserve it.
hahahaha.
but i sure wish it didnt happen.
duhh.

its just killing my christmas mood.
what a fun sucker.
its like waiting for the axe to fall.
pheesh.

anyways.
lets get emo for awhile.
since i have nothing to do
and a emo song is playing now.
lets see...

i'm not going to forgive you for that.
not ever.
and i'll remember.
even as i pretend to forget.
to you,
it was just an insignificant moment.
a thoughtless word.
but to me.
it was a stab right through the heart.
and considering all the times i was there
for you.
when she couldnt be.
you are such a lousy friend.
the worst ever.

but sadly,
the joke is on me.
cause i'd sooner die
then give you up as a friend.

my love/hate delimma.

i relish it.

okayy.
i'm done.
now everyone must think i'm
slightly off.
which i guess i am.
but the whole package is
alright what.
hahhahah.
its the sanest people that you
have to watch out for.

okayyy.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

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