is it just me?
or has the whole world gone ahead and gotten themselves
attached while i was buried up to my head in books, slaving away in school?
geez.
not just one person.
but we're talking about at least 3 people here buddy!
like what the hell happened to "Single is the way to go!!!"
oh kayy.
i'm starting to sound a little sourgrapes here.
hahaha.
But thats not true.
i'm not being selfish and nasty.
Its just that 3 people in a span of less than a week?
Come on!
Thats slightly too much, even for me to digest!
I must admit though, amidst all that
disbelief and indignation,
I am rather happy for all of you.
after all, the whole "i've found my better half thing"
is a rather happy occasion.
i sincerely hope you get all the perks
i read about in my storybooks.
haha.
Ooooooooo.
Raunchy.
hahahaha.
okayy.
ignore that last bit.
That was my perv side showing.
haha.
Anyways.
i guess the point of this post was not to reprimand anyone.
It more of focuses on me.
And how sometimes,
it feels like everyone else has the god given ability to move on,
except yours truly!!!
In like a whirlwind,
all my friends suddenly have boyfriends!!!
LIKE WHERE THE HELL IS MINE?!!!Not that i'm lamenting my boyfriendless state.
but i'm not exactly relishing it either you know.
and who's fault is that.
(pauses for a long moment, stares sulkily at the computer screen)
okayy.
lets not point fingers here.
cause you know how the saying goes.
"when you point at someone, there are 4 other fingers pointing back at blab blah blah."
and so.
i guess i've just gotten an advance little expresso taste
of how an old maid feels.
when she's invited to all her best friends's weddings,
sitting near the stage, decked in all her grand finery, made affordable
by her single status, her make up and haircut achieving the desired effect,
making her look, confident, accomplished but completely untouchable.
Her smile is wide but does not quite seem to reach her eyes, she is careful not to smudge her lipstick.
She claps enthusiastically as the newlyweds approaches, and rises to offer
them a toast.
Her lips move, and graceful, pretty wellwishes flow like a song from her lips.
Inside however, she silently curses her own foolishness.
She should have guessed
what was inside that, innocent white envelope.
She should have thrown it away in the bin, like she usually did with
all the other bloody wedding invitations, before her mind could register
what the envelope contain, and her heart compelled her to attend those silly celebrations.
Again she mutters a low curse.
She was usually so careful, how could she have missed this one. she must be been blind.
Clenching her teeth and forcing another blinding smile, her manicured nails digging deeply into the soft flesh of her palms,
she rues the day when she puts herself through such hellish torture, ever again.
Okayy.
i'm being overly dramatic again.
but i got carried away.
hahaha.
not bed eh?
anyways.
i'm stopping now.
i've decided to make a trip to the library.
sigh.
its sad how all my happiness lies in afew paperback novels.
laughable really.
toodles!!!
You're totally right.Every action was well rehearsed.