you know the feeling,
like you have so much to say.
but dont know how to even begin to say it all.
and you question your ability to even be able to express it
in words, in such a way
that everyone understands you?
thats exactly how i feel.
thats why i just sat infront of the computer.
my fingers grazing the keyboard,
completely still.
for one whole minute.
trying to gather my thoughts,
and make sense of my feelings.
i want to talk about betrayal,
about unfaithfulness,
about regrets,
about revenge,
about intense hate,
about friendship,
and about forever.
all the good and bad.
mixed and blended into my life.
how to sieve out the bad ones
and just keep the good ones.
its impossible.
unfathomable.
thats why i'm going to stop here.
until i can make sense of this mess.
i cant bring myself to talk about it.