i know, i dont update anymore.
sometimes i wonder if i should just stop blogging completely.
there are so many things i wanna say, let out, but i dont think i can find the words that will fully express what i mean.
so whats the point.
and then there are some things that i cant say out loud,
but yet weigh so heavily, so much so that i find myself sighing so often now.
my days have been relatively good.
you know? filled with friends and just alot of fun.
but yet i know that some of us are just falling apart,
and i'm not sure how long i can hold us together.
i just wish some of us would try harder.
because i'm getting tired.
Why cant some people learn to be more sensitive, and others try to be less so.
and why cant we just give in sometimes, and let it go.
and why cant you see that your strong headedness is really hurting people around you?
do you really need me to say it out loud?
What happened to give and take.
Thats just the way we're built i guess.
Different, individuals.
i just hope that is this just a temporary rough patch that we're going through,
and that it will pass soon enough.
but if its a rough patch, its a really long one.
when its over, i pray all of us will be left intact.
And as for you.
cant you see how much you're tearing us up?
When will you stop?
No more games please.this is such a wishful post.
i just keep wishing things could be different, better.
i know i'm weak, behind my tough facade.
because i let other make decisions for me sometimes.
but the opinions of people i care about mean alot to me.
and it just hurts when i feel that no one is behind me in this decision.
fully anyway.
Even if you disagree, at least dont let me hear about it.
Because of all this, i cant go anywhere, i'm afraid to make any decision.
how weak is that.
This is so wrong,but it sure feels right.